Mercedes Smith was a Freshman at Lindsey Wilson College (LWC) in Columbia, Kentucky, studying communications. On Thursday, April 20, she sadly took her own life.
Many have reached out to express their condolences including the president of LWC and her track and field coach.
“We were deeply saddened to learn of the passing of Mercedes. Our thoughts and prayers are with her family, friends and teammates and the entire LWC community during this incredibly difficult time.” – Lindsey Wilson President, William T. Luckey Jr
“Mercedes was a good-spirited person who showed promise in her future. She was a fun and loving person and everyone enjoyed being around her. She will be truly missed.” – LWC track and field head coach Jamaine Gordon.
“Anytime you learn of the death in a community, it’s a shock. Everybody is going to deal with this in their own way. There is no right way or no wrong way – but we will be solely focused on supporting those who loved her. – Vice President of Student Services and Enrollment Management Dean Adams.
Grief stricken, her boyfriend Markeice Brown, took to Facebook:
“Today I lost my wife I should say I lost my life, can’t put in words how i feel, we just talked last night why you ain’t tell me? Even tho we knew we ain’t have nobody we knew we had eachother, you was really a reflection of me you knew how I felt knew when I was feeling and you though it was crazy how I knew something was wrong even when you would fake a smile , it feel like my life just ended it we just talked Tho why you ain’t say nothing man why???? Why bra whyyyyy ???? You was so special to me you meant so much to me you showed me a lot but most importantly you loved me for me not what I brought to the the table first day we met we talked for almost 6 hours straight in the car as if we known Eachother forever I knew yo Likes dislikes goals everything about you I knew I’m just lost more lost than ever Y’all saying this’ll get better man stfu I ain’t Tryna here that y’all don’t know this feeling a mf you talk to shared countless memories with is gone forever a mf you talked to all day everyday about any and everything a mf you didn’t go a day without saying you loved , man we use to get so sad Cus we couldn’t see Eachother you remember puddin? I seen you two weeks ago it’s just like I brought so much joy to yo day you couldn’t stop crying when you hadda to leave you kept Sayin “this ain’t fair” man no this ain’t fair….. I never cried this hard and long in my life you had my whole heart not a piece of it we was soul mates you was my soul my heart the reason i woke up every morning first person I talk to Ina morning and the last a night ……so how tf y’all expect me to be “ALRIGHT” ?????!!!!!???!!!!”
According to Brown’s Facebook Live post, he was being blamed for her death and couldn’t take the pain. He left the following video and suicide letter:
“I love all y’all, but I’m tired of being blamed for everything. I just can’t do it no more. Y’all don’t even know what she was going through. Y’all don’t know what we was going through.
…Ma, I love you. I love you, Ma. I just can’t do this no more…I love all my brothers, man. I love all my sisters, man. Real talk.”
I don’t know what else to say. I’m trying to get all my words out before I go…I can’t do this no more, brah. I tried. Everybody knew I loved Mercedes, brah. Y’all sound dumb if y’all think I didn’t.
This is truly a sad situation. Prayers and condolences to the families of both Markiese and Mercedes.
TRIGGER WARNING: Video contains suicidal thoughts.